Here I am looking out of the window again. Like before, there is nothing much to see out there. It is the same as yesterday. Darkness looms and gives way to light. Happiness lingers and succumbs to sadness. All the rest is the same thing as what happened in the past. That is why words spoken by our predecessors are words inspiring us even to this day—for we can identify—for what we have is the same as what they had before.
What else is new? What is there to explore? What is there to look forward to? -- Nothing. There is nothing more to discover. Almost all things have been covered.
It is just that there is this order that has to be maintained; all for the sake of keeping things within the grasp of understanding of mankind. If new things come up every single time, new order has to be established. For without order mankind will be in confusion.
The new things have to be placed in order and they have to be connected with the old order to achieve order itself. In doing so, a moment of chaos may arise and also a moment of confusion. Or maybe not only a moment, but long periods of chaos and confusion will arise because every single time a new thing arises or a new order inserts in the just about to be ordered things, order has to slowly settle in to eliminate confusion. But come to think of it, order cannot be achieved at all as new orders constantly insert itself in the lives of mankind. Constant chaos will be the order of things.
I guess the creator of all these resolved to have things repeat itself to have things in a pattern go in a circle—to create connection—to achieve order and peace. But did the creator consider the dreariness that will arise like what I am having now?
The antidote for this dreariness, that I think the creator has provided is to put somebody who reached the pinnacle of monotony to another order that was not indulged in before. For I believe that the order in this world is composed of several circles or rings that are locked to each other in a sort of connection. This interlocking rings comprise the whole order of this world and one who is bored with one ring of order can just jump out to another ring to find new things that is not new after all. It is just a matter of exchange gifts between persons just to have variety.
You see this happens when we meet new people and get to learn about their lives and somehow, even through their stories, we get to be in their world or ring of order. That is in a way, starting the process of transferring to another ring of order. It seems to be creating a variety. But only seemingly, for variety is relative. To one a ring of order is old, to another it is new.
Finding new things then, is just jumping to old and tested stuff of other people --leaving us to try and test it also and later on leave it.
It is a case of a set of parents rearing children for their children to rear their own children later on---mingling with other set of parent’s children. Nothing new there-- all the same stuff--- same old circles interlocking each other.
There is a reason why I explored this idea of "interlocking rings of human experience". I have given the impression that I get tired of one thing after some time. I portrayed someone who dislikes taking a second look. But the truth of the matter is, some things are worth looking at the second time around--or even a third, fourth, fifth-- or many times around. Most persons don't even want to part with the world they have been accustomed to.
But I am just not that type. I have been jarred by my past that I have the tendency not to dwell in it anymore. I always want to move on to escape the pain of the moment. It is not really because I am bored. I am just afraid to linger and be susceptible to the harsh realities of life. I don't want to have a closer look.
I know that there is no harm in taking a second glance. There may be something in what I have been staring at that I have not truly seen the value of. I just lack courage and wisdom. I focus my understanding on things that I can be impersonal about like this idea of "world order of interlocking circles". I keep myself far from emotional vulnerability.
Oh my mind! It can do a lot of things. It can make or break me. It can justify me and it can expose me. It can also take me away from this boredom. I know it shall eventually will. I have been given that faculty by my creator. I just have to employ it in just a matter of time.
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