"It depends on how I feel"

Each time upon waking up in the morning, I would have the feeling that I shall never allow myself to sleep late at night. I should have not wasted my time last night dilly dallying and making pictures of myself. I regret having done so many of them and I feel like erasing each single shot and start over a new life for myself. I guess mornings really do that to me. When I don’t get enough sleep the previous night, I tend to reorganize my priorities and put sleeping and being good on top of the list. But of course in the middle of the day and especially after work, everything changes. I would eventually go back to what I have done the previous day at exactly the same time. Now, I know this has something to do with emotions that I must not at all trust. I have known this for quite some time now that is why when I have the regretful feeling in the morning, I really don’t believe it and not let it drag me down. I would entertain the remorseful emotions each morning in my youth and what it has led me to do is to be delinquent in my school attendance. I would always be late. Thus, this time that I am already working and my time is being paid for my keeps, I have managed to let myself revise my psyche first thing in the morning. I don’t start the day by dwelling on my emotions. I don’t trust it as much as before because it fades away and the thought pattern or resolution that arises from the emotion of the moment is not binding and is only fleeting. After all, nothing is really permanent when it comes to thoughts, especially when the external circumstances are also intervening. If it were only up to my emotions and not include logic and will in my life, then my actions would be erratic.